But today we all received the news that she was gone. The question that was burning in my mind was: Was she a Christian? That. Would have answered every other thing.

As I sat in the hall wondering, the answer came from J.Hoo "According to Buddhist rituals." And all my intent just whooshed away and I fell back upon my two palms as if in defeat.

Buddhist. That means, she doesn't have a chance, not anymore anyway. That means, she's gonna spend an eternity in the lake of fire.

What does an eternity mean to us? Is it even fathomable. But yeah, eternity.

Where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

How many people die everyday, and remain unreached? How often do we go about caring about merely our own concerns? Do we love God's people the way He loves them?

How many more people, are going to spend their eternities without the hope of salvation, forever more?

When, will we realise the urgency of the situation? When, will I?

And now even though it's useless to say all these, but I really regret. I regret all the thoughts that I had towards her that were not pleasant, that were not pleasing to both God and man. The superficiality of it all. When I judged at that time, when I chose to judge, little did I know this was someone leaving so soon. Little did I know this was the most dedicated teacher ever to both her students and especially the foreign scholars.

For all it's worth, I'm sorry, Ms Low.

This is such a wake up call. For me, for everyone I guess. I'm sorry I ever judged you. Words that were implied and feelings in my head are as good as saying it right out in your face. To watch my words, my thoughts.

When will I realise the reality of the frailty of life?

I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow;

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapour in the wind.

But from everlasting to everlasting,

Thou art God