Anyway. I was just thinking about 2010.

I guess alot of times we expect a new year to come with well new beginnings and a fresh start and just everything associated with new years (correct me if I'm wrong because that was my thinking too). I mean of course it does provide opportunities for fresh starts and all don't get me wrong. New years are fabulous times to start moving on with a fresh and hopeful outlook. But how often do we consciously or subconsciously expect some miracle change in our attitudes and everything we set out to achieve as soon as we step into the new year?

It's like. First of Jan becomes some greatly awaited day that on this day, I will be able to have fresh courage, a more persevering will, and I can change everything in just a snap, just because, it's a new year.

We think to ourselves, this year I'm going to do this and that and this. Especially thinking of what I wanna achieve for God, and to develop and grow my relationship with Him, in this "fresh start". But all too often it just becomes empty words, and empty promises.

When this year rolled around, I was filled with great hope and expectancy. I was somehow expecting the miracle change. To be ultra motivated to do my QT, to always be fresh up and running for God, to be bold in sharing the gospel. But to my disappointment, it didn't happen. I mean obviously, what was I thinking right? But yeah.

But in all that talk. There's something different now. Because at least there's a will. But today the realization hit me that, that's not enough. All that I set out to achieve, I have to work for it, I have to actually, DO IT. It is more than just thinking it in my head and setting out to do it, it is a choice I have to take. At the same time remembering that all of this is not by my own might, for I cannot. But it is God who wills it so.

And I pray that this year I will walk in His will. And not deviate too much from it, but when I do, that I'll be brought back. And I know He'll bring me back. He always does.

So why not this year, go and actually work for your new year resolutions? :)