What if we give of our hearts?

To live with a hope in our hearts; to be that hope because we've been given a hope.

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

Hebrews 11:1

What do we hope for? How does hope bring us forward?

I think hope is a liberating thing. People dwell in the shackles of the past, of things that could have been, that would have been. They see themselves through the lenses of the things they have done, the person they have been. It's inevitable, isn't it? How else will you see yourself?

These shackles - they hold us. They have a death grip on us.

But that's the thing. What if this hope is something that has overcome death? That means... those shackles... are completely powerless now!

To live not in the shadow of who we've been, but in the glorious hope of who we will be.

To live for this hope of the future.

To be free.

And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Romans 5:5

I am alive in this moment.

No I am not about to pity you - I think you've gotten enough of that from your own self. But neither am I here to condemn you. I just want you to wake up. Wake up from the horrible dream you are prolonging for yourself.

No you don't need anyone to help you. It's just between you and God. Don't go off into this snivelling slump, and get her to pat you on the back and tell you it'll be okay with both of you together. No it is not okay, and things will never be okay if you don't get it sorted out.

Snap out of it la bro.

Stand up.

If anyone were to experience all the emotions in art in a single life, that person would go mad.

It is not possible. The depth of sorrow, anger, longing, even happiness. It will kill a person.

Be careful, lest you find yourself wallowing in sadness, self-pity, hate, love.... Emotion. It will confuse you, and make you feel like you are but a ghost of a person, because reality will never satisfy. Do not indulge it.

There is a necessary mundaneness in life. That much should be made clear.

In the quest to find meaning you will find the truth: There is no meaning. But this is different for me. For I have found meaning, not in myself, not in this world, because this world is broken, the human condition racked with sadness and sin. But in my Redeemer, the light of my salvation.

Choose then what you will do, what you will think,

How you will live.

I thank God for Hope. It is a light that fills the emptiness, a joy that flows like a river.

Unseen.

Fleeting questions, gone with the moment.

Smoke rings, misty breaths.

I think of things that have been, and things that could be.

We connect in a very different way from what I am accustomed to. Sometimes I don't understand it, because it isn't about thoughts and words. And it has changed a certain part of me, I know.

I think humans are built on order. We order our worlds in different ways, some conventional, some unique - those that we often call an organized mess. There must be order. That's why we seek reasons, that's why we fear the unknown, we fear what we cannot understand, and many prefer to stay a good way from it.

Insanity is thus the lack of order. When there is no logical order, when thoughts colours emotions actions meld and blend and tangles together. It ensnares a person.

Let my thoughts be ordered by Christ.