Obligations. Pah.

I realised today, it's true, everyone's looking for hope. There are many who like songs that carry the message of hope and faith, of being able to cling onto something.

But hope in what? Hope in whom?

The world?

Yourself?

It was dark because the class closed us in there there I was with my little cupboard space, in a slightly cramped but comfortable position, knees at 45 degrees and walls that enclosed me.

We sang and had a jolly good laughter session.

Azura tried to get us out to no avail because the class jammed the board so we couldn't push it away. Yuen needed to pee and was slightly claustrophobic. Grace was well, sitting there singing with me.

We were separated by the cupboard partitions, so we couldn't have any physical contact with each other.

Darkness, my space, and voices. :)

I liked it :)

I finally understand what they mean. Had a little epiphany during Poetry and Song options today. And I do see how large a dimension music gives to a written piece. To hear "maggie, milly, molly and may" sung by Natalie Merchant was a totally different experience from reading it. It's her interpretation of the poem, and thus her performance, which was slightly haunting, but nevertheless, rather beautiful.

I miss doing lit, and doing Blake and Wordsworth. The former tops my chart of the best poets of all time. I remember doing London, and Tiger, and many others. My annotated poems are still in a dusty box under my bed. Perhaps I should read them again soon :)

for that's what I'm made for.

It's gonna affect a lot of things I bet. Argh.

Perhaps this is where I come to realise that every little thing counts. I missed by 1. But that came from an accumulation of many ones.

But y'know, it's not like they owed it to me. Perhaps it was this complacency, this assumptive attitude.

And I am humbled.

I won't fight the system, now's not the time. It's been too long of fighting the system, and finally where in year 4 I decide to give it a rest, the damage had already been done.

But in all things, I know that You are sovereign, and I know that this is Your best for me. Though I can't really see it now, I'm sure that I will, in time, for You do all things for the good of those who love You.

May I also learn to see each trial as pure joy, for through them You have taught me, and let not this be the goal, but in everything, may You be the everlasting goal.

On another note. I've been noticing the apple wave in the MRT among commuters. It's pretty scary. Surrounded by a crowd of people tapping away on their phones, 4 out of 5 will be iphones/itouches. And among those listening to music, 3 out of 5 will be using apple earphones. Which means.... More Iphones/Ipods/Itouches.

Talk about world domination man. Apple's got it right in them. Hahaha