I mean, ironic much?

This year death seems to be rather common. I guess, for the people around me la. I'm not accustomed to all these funerals and stuff. And it makes me think of the reality after that. And sometimes I plead for the person only after he/she has passed on. And that's pretty stupid, I know.

Death. Life.
It does good for one to think about such matters. The living in the moment thing has a huge loophole. Cus after the moment's done, what's next? The next moment? What if it means hell? And that's eternity, no more moments, my friend.

On another note,

I miss my mum.

Bah, humbug.

At least now I can sleep in peace. Golden ratio. Whatchamit. Think you golden very cool ah. Make the math dept want to test this kind of thing.

Bah.

The human condition. Suddenly I understood it. I cannot profess to know everything about it, but surely the beginnings of it. The crack of light that peeps in whilst it awaits for the door to fully open.

This quote cracked me up. Hahaha, but still, how true. C.S Lewis has a sense of humour ;D

And it's true, I'm scared of what comes, but I know it's necessary? Yeah.

I think I've hit a dead end. It's very tiring, and it's discouraging.

If there were less things to worry about, I could afford time to go walking.

If there were days I didn't have to go to school and there was nothing,

If all my time could be spent with God alone, and only Him

If we live the life that we all dream of,

What a word.

It's weird, that just at the moment I thought we'd drifted to the point of no return, you come back knocking. And it kind of feels like we've never stopped talking, but at the same time, it's unfamiliar, this small talk and chit chat.

This time, it's different.

This time, I don't have to say a word, because you start.

And I quite like it this way :)

Quite amazing. A quarter way through the second round I was already mentally preparing myself for the 13min+ that I expected to get, albeit still holding on to the "maintain my timing" thing.

When you run, soon things start to blur, and it gets a little harder to breathe, all you can do is to focus on running. Simply running. I tried distracting myself with random thoughts, but nay that was quite useless.

Thank you all those who cheered me on :) And I was highly amused because at almost every single block of students that I passed, I'd definitely get a "Go Joce, nice shoes!" or "Sexy shoes!" and once following those -whispers- "Whoa look at that girl's shoes man"

Hahaha, I really like my shoes :D

But yes, I really thank God for the 12:02. It was last year's unaccomplished dream haha, the 12min. (well almost there la huh)

To the 11min range next year! ~

2.4 is actually one of the most heartwarming events in a year. It's where people you don't actually know, maybe like met once or twice, shouting your name to cheer you on. And you do the same for those whose name you know too :) School spirit. Haha (Y)

And I've found, that in EVERYTHING, even the smallest minutest, most negligible of things, to do it unto God. And may He be my ultimate goal, in all that I do.

Insurance coverage is awesome man. Single hospital rooms ftw. The room is like a hotel room, and I am nestled on the sofa with like 3 pillows and an extra chair for my legs/work :) The nurse comes in once in awhile to check my dad's BP. Oh yeah, I looked at the menu for the day. It looks awesome. And every time I go to the toilet I feel this need to take of my shoes, cus who wears shoes in a (hotel) bathroom right! Seriously, never knew staying in the hospital could be so enjoyable :D Ok the operation probably isn't, and the not being able to eat/drink thing too. But still! Being a visitor works fine for me hahaha.

I should have just brought my stuff and stayed overnight. School is like just round the corner. (Y)

Okay, I think I'll take a nap. QA is frying my brains :( Ms L goes so fast I really really need Mrs Lim back. This is terrible. SA is in term3 week 1/2 and I'm deadddddd. I cannot afford to do so badly again for this PPA! Bleagh.