Everyday I pray for the day, and every day, things go well. Even if they don't, I know there are reasons for it and I cling to the Lord my trust and hope.

Catching up on sleep tmr hehehe but still going for trng haha feel abit retarded but ohwell! x)

Exciting weekend ahead! Whooooo

Got caught in the rain before that haha shucks man it finally rains but kinda not helping the weather! Sticky ttm. :O

Beautiful photos and words are mesmerizing :)

I feel recording down what happens in my day is the most pointless thing ever. Ha. Yuen would go, "Frivolousness." Hahaha and yes I do agree too. Wonder what's happening tmr during school. Probably some subject roundup thinggum. I need books to read haha

I haven't had such a fulfilling time in a long long while. With nearly perfect plays and great tries, and the wonderful batting at the end which made my day. I haven't batted like that since eons. Or actually this might be the first. The new bat is awesome. Seeing the ball fly/drive all the way to the track - ah, accomplishment, success sweet.

Today is one of the days in a long while I feel so at ease, tired feet but happy heart. And makes me look forward to the new day that tomorrow brings. The inexplicable sense of trust and yielding as well. In Him, I am totally and fully free.

Today is one of the days, I feel so blissful. Bring me to an open place and I will lie there, with a smile from my heart. Like honey on my lips.

I am content :)

Lol M.Ong just came in and suddenly you see all the coms on the desktop xD Funny much. Shall edit some photos. 

Sometimes, just sometimes. Pangs of... Regret maybe?

Got back all my results, am rather happy with them :) Chinese was a whopper shocker haha I never ever imagined how I could do that well Praise the Lord man seriously. Blessed beyond measure. :)

Everytime I shut my eyes this incredible wave of sleepiness just washes over me and although I don't fall into that a deep sleep, it's still one that does not allow me to actually do/think about other stuff. So weird. Nevermind, what I have is time haha. Not really but still, yeah. Heh.

Olympic day tmr have no idea what in the world that is haha and they're splitting up the sports/nonsports people lol discriminating much xD

To have eternity stamped on my eyes, yeah that's my wish too. To be able to serve and live for a higher purpose, to broaden our horizons, look beyond the present and what's directly in front of us.

Rah, emo rants all the time. Okay whatever. School's really boring bleah. They leave us here to stone, and we don't get to do anything. I am insanely tired I think I'll go to sleep hm.

People management is really the hardest hardest thing in this world. Relational issues is always at the crux of every conflict/problem/solution.

And then the fear strikes, will it be like that when I grow up too?

Gee you know in the end, maybe I was wrong about it all. Or just, I dunno. It always happens like that doesn't it. But time and time again, this just makes me even more world-worn. I really don't like this world much. The whole facade of it all, even among the closest. Where things can just fade away and be destroyed, all in the blink of an eye. A pot that has been worked on tirelessly, been through the scorching flames, carefully moulded by the potter's hands, in just one split second - it slips. And there it goes, cascading through the air as if it's played on slow motion. Colliding with all the air molecules, and then it falls, with a crash. And then silence. The is becomes a was.

But there's always a bright light at the end of the tunnel, to put it in a cliche, but of course that could just be the train. Haha. Over dependence is not good. The only one that I can be fully and completely dependant on is God cus He never lets me down or walks away. When will I learn -shakes head-

It's funny how easily the mind erases one thing to focus on another. Like the pot, if one wills it so, past things are just so easily forgotten. Like the whisper of a breath, there and then gone so quickly so easily. If only one stretches out one's hand. And hold it fast. Like a precious precious memory. But memories are but misty wisps in the vast expanse of the mind.

What do we hold on too, fast firm and strong?

For where your treasure is, there your heart will also be.

It's times like these that I feel more alone than ever. Surrounded by a sea of faces, yet. Distant in every way. Faces flash past, they all go on their own way. To sit and watch, where time stops in my world, but is ticking away in every others'. Frozen, still.

To find my sanctuary;

Communion with You.

Hm. Sleepy day haha I wanna go out :O

Okay I'm kinda lazy to elaborate. Basically, sat swam walked got a shade darker took the tram back and forth waited very long for grace wanting rachel to finish taking luge saw some stupid people who let their dog poop over the table and just left it there for really long hais people nowadays wish the dog would just run away and I would be cheering it on walked to palawan (:D) walked somemore to the 2 towers thinggy sat awhile took ghey pics climbed to the bridge thing took somemore pictures felt the breeze felt some rain/sea spray wanting realised she was late headed back.

Ah, that was a long sentence sorry about the lack of punctuation haha.

Was a good day. Though I am really tired now. Finally can sleep in tmr thank God for holidays even if they're short term man.

Fill the metro skies with country air

To feel Your presence within every fibre of my being, joy - unspeakable.

To sense Your beauty with every one of my senses - flooding in.

The simplest things.

Haha didn't really get the :O:O it's over (!!) feeling because the excitement half leaked out on
Friday so today was already somewhat like a half deflated balloon haha. Went to Borders while waiting for the Physics people read finish a whole book which really cheated my feelings cus it ended on such a bad note! Ok fine not exactly bad, just, I don't like cliff-hangers! Esp when the story's supposed to get really interesting. Well, it had the potential to at least. Ohhhwell.

Watched Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs, kinda didn't exactly live up to my expectations and I really felt I wasted my $ on the 3D which was the only thing that Lido had.

It's good that I finally have time on my hands now :) But time always seems to run so short. Hm. :/

Today was rather wonderful went out for brunch after papers haha most amusing brunch ever.

Najwa goes: "You know just now the lady wanted to give me a free coffee!". . . . "Must be because I'm so pretty -smug smile :)-" Haha wth man xD

Ah and then there was the play with food on wanting's hotcake and making maple syrup creamer balls writing name in butter plus the maplesyrup+creamer+butter mix, oh and the most epic, flicking a stirrer into wanting's face. IT WAS PURELY AN ACCIDENT I PROMISE HAHAHA. Epic seriously her face. I also got a shock when it spiralled out of my mouth heh. Too bad no one was psychic enough to take a video. Then she decided to throw the stirrer back and me and I dodged so it like hit the poor guy behind. Which got us an evil stare. Hahahahaha.

Went to borders for some me time read mitch albom's new book "Have a little Faith" which was mighty good.

God is really so so good and seeing all those people with such riveting trust faith hope and perseverance is just quite mind-blowing. Only God has the power to change the people that society has given up on. Because God never lets anyone fall through the cracks, ever.

EVERYONE should stop saying they're gonna fail its really getting onto my nerves. You think that way its gonna be that way okay. And like, actually, nothing like that is obviously going to happen. Maybe you don't get the 4.0, but that's a far cry from failing. Pfft. People.

One day I'm just gonna roll my eyes and walk away ha.

Anyway, apart from that. I am becoming a fat bum haha from just sitting down and studying all day long. Ladeedum. Studying has actually been pretty enjoyable I have never met up with the same people so many times in a week hahahaha.

And I'm learning how to drown out the noise (ie talking or things that I would pay attention to) and concentrate on what's in front of me. That's good that's good. Haha :D

Don't know where I should go tmr. It's like breaking the fortnight's rhythm of after sch/exams, study. Go home, eat use com qt sleep. Plus it's not exactly an ACTUAL end. Most people also haven't finish. Maybe I'll go lead the life of a loner hahaha.

I feel like eating argh this is bad I want to eat my biscuits! Biscuits are the joy of one's life :)

Yay, glad you're okay now!

That aside, I finally finished reading The Screwtape Letters. Played an AWESOME game of rugby today despite my stamina really dying out on me and getting rammed in the face. But that's all part and parcel of the fun aye? :D Happy much. I wish we could play rugby all the time. Gosh why must we only reach this module like NOW. Wish I had more stamina though. So that we could continuously sprint and ram and have awesome scuffles hahaha. Netball or any other sport that I've played pales in comparison to it haha ;D

I am becoming a fat pig. I ate 5 meals today. Pro or what. :O

Worried for you really. And also rather curious. But really, now's kinda, the season where you really need to learn how to prioritise. Hm ohwell, up to you la. Ha.

Gee I wonder.

Off to read the darn ppts. Ah, till monday!

Hosanna.

I can't say that I know, I can't say that I understand. All I know is what I see. Sometimes I feel staunched by my age, but what good will talk do really. We've been talking since so many years ago. And what about them. It's not like I could leave them behind and just. Go on my way. I mean, if I could that would be the ideal. But the thing is I can't. These are all souls and lives. People who are so important in God's eyes.

Bah. Decisions.

See, I knew things wouldn't go back to normal again. But that's fine la I guess.

(Next time when I look back, I know I'll be really puzzled by that hahaha)

But can you not see that we are subject to nature's whims and fancies, and of course the overarching force - God. Who we are and what kind of turn this human race will take whether we'll grow wings or something, that's already in his master plan. I believe in evolution as through the natural order of things, in light that we would never have the full picture of the past. But I will not forget the eternal being who is in charge of all these, and have seen the evolution of everything in the world, the omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent God.

I will not believe man, who try to prove what they cannot, and simply must find things to answer their questions instead of turning to the most obvious source of answers. I do not understand, why are their eyes clouded and their determination to prove it all, by man.

There're already so much we don't understand of the present. And so much to deal with. Why not take each day as it comes, instead of filling the world with theories and possibilities that niggle at the back of our head.

Look what evolution and philosophy has done to me. At times like this, I absolutely agree that ignorance is bliss. Hais.

Humbled. By his glory and my lack. The many empty promises that I have made. I am sorry Lord.

Faith without deeds is dead. We could spend eternity discussing and having empty conversations. But if that's not going to do anything, if that's not gonna change something, impact something, transform someone's life. It is all simply, a waste.

Open the blind eyes,

Unlock the deaf ears.

And through it all give me strength and courage to share you Lord.

Would you stamp eternity in my eyes.

English was okay-ish as usual there can never be a really good english paper or a really bad one. Just cross my fingers and hope I picked out the right points for summary haha.

Today was phail studying day after the many intense studying days. Haha I guess cus it was like such a big group of us 7 people :O Yeah and ended up listening to Hui Jun's stories <:) hehehe. And smooth criminal lol and taking like 1h to eat my macs while staring at the same page of bio notes. Pro, I know. Well at least I finished the ecology handout :)

I really think you must know that people have their limits and I really don't see why you don't get the hint when it's really rather obvious. How much can one take la really. It's kind of overboard, so.

Things would never go back to normal I think and actually I don't feel like trying cus I've already accepted it to be something of the past that I can look back and smile. Though I guess we'd be somewhat normal but yeah. I don't feel like venturing there again.

Plus today was quite accomplished! Finished geog and mugged chinese too if I don't pass, I am going to kill myself. I know I said this before hahaha cus it always happens I fail the crucial prac in class ._. I am so smart really. Hais. WHO FAILS BAO ZHANG BAO DAO PLEASE. Bleah.

Am so thankful to xinyi for sending her senior's bio notes its like totally condensed and I dont really need to print out the ppts anymore! :D Whoo.

It feels so much like a friday today I really thought tmr was saturday, conveniently avoiding the fact that I have 2 papers tomorrow. Haha. Actually the studying has been quite okay, its the prospect of actually having to sit for the papers that's disturbing. So. I didn't do anything for english. But ohwell.

She breathes in the smell of freshly brewed coffee, takes a sip, and settles into the chair, lost in the world of distant megacities and their problems.