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//Wednesday, September 30, 2009 8:57 PM

Am extremely extremely tired. Feel like I could just drift off to sleep now.

Wow its been an hour and all I did was surf facebook haha. At least tmr's a holiday and I can sleep in! But also means going into intense mugger mode. Awh.

Need to go out tmr and mug by myself or something haha. Alot of subjs this time are rather hard, LIKE LIT. I'm really quite scared I got nothing to write about for the general essay question. Bleagh. Will mug geog oh oh and CHINESE CHINESE CHINESE again. I CANNOT fail my chinese man seriously. Grah. Why so like that :(

These few days have just been studystudystudy. Bet the people at subway recognizes me already or something. Plus I always sit at the same place ha. Went to macs today though which was freeezing. Came back with a different smell hahaha.

Keep forgetting tmr is a holiday was still counting my hours of sleep by the time I'm supposed to wake up every morning ie 6am. Hais, sad life.

Gee.

Tired off to sleep early much yes

//Tuesday, September 29, 2009 7:38 PM

Whoa seems like exams are really affecting alot of people. Hm. With each coming year, the stress and workload just gets larger and more intense. Never have I started mugging for tests that early and on such an intense scale with the feeling that there are actually quite alot of things to study! And I don't expect it to go down till I retire or smthng haha how sad. Life ah. Hais. Haha

Gee. I failed chinese compo again. Means I'd have to mug my butt off on thursday for it. SEE, since when do I mug for chinese seriously. Last term was like a first lol. I don't like failing. Even Shanxi passed! Hahaha.

I feel like playing final fantasy 8 man, the squall one. After exam plans are forming :D I can't wait.

You don’t need the answers to all of life’s questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side

//Sunday, September 27, 2009 6:29 PM

F1 night race today! Haha, not intending to watch it though. Just prolly make trips to and fro the com and tv.

I actually did my work today! :D Circular measure is a complete utter waste of my time okay not really but the thing is its just so tedious and bah. Draw lines here and there. Ohwell. Guess I'm not gonna be doing my geog fa please we only had like what, 1 lesson on foreign talent and she hasn't even printed the notes on it for us. Then she asks us to do a LORMS on it. Wonderful. The 310 people will probably do though. Tsk, I dunno.

My father has apparently already made plans about the house he's gonna build in malaysia. Along with his plans for a turtle + orchid farm + a dog that he'll train to ring a bell to let the turtles know its feeding time. Hahaha how amusing. He even designed the house already.
Guess that's gonna be his retirement project hahaha.
Ahwell. ;)

Time for dinner. I'm full.
Oh yeah, CBC 33rd Anniversary today. Hm it's been a long 33 years huh. People that have come and gone, things have changed so much too. I still miss what we used to be last time. Much happier, or maybe I was a kid and was just ignorant about stuff. I wish people would come back though. Miss you guys.
:/

//Saturday, September 26, 2009 9:52 PM

I kinda forgot what I wanted to type here haha. Ohwell.

Hm, so. The mugging season has begun! Ah. And I have started mugging too heh. Actually seems like there are quite alot of things to study I hope next week is really enough time oops. Even subjects like LIT and CHINESE require me to study this time. Bleah. Br, haven't done geog fa too and math assignment. Looks like I gotta start work tmr, how terrible.

Been feeling overly exhausted Ihafnoideawhy :( Even dreamt that I was super tired which I was, LOL.

Questions and answers, but they aren't definite. Haha looks like that's why Keats liked negative capability.

"Beauty is truth, truth beauty," - that is all
Ye know on earth, and all ye need to know.

//Wednesday, September 23, 2009 8:57 PM

Ah, I feel really sleepy. There's cheerleading comp after sch tmr but I'm so lazy to stay back though I wanna watch. Pooft.

Had Philo COI today, hm really got me thinking just like every class does la. Then I thought also like about man and science. How y'know, now we're trying to play God and go into science because we want to prove things about ourselves, and find out more about ourselves and this world, giving us the sense of power and autonomy over everything. But that's a fool's view.

Science, is meant for us to discover and therefore get a glimpse into His perfection and majesty, such that it would further compel us to believe in the existence of God, and of our lack. To discover His fingerprints on the earth and therefore give him praise. The perfect and wonderful way he causes things to work out over time. All in His perfect timing. :)

Philosophy makes people think and question, about just everything and anything. But why, discontentment? Or on a search for answers?

Whatever it is, why is there the need for it, really. There isn't a way to get out of this world/dimension even if another one existed, and well sitting there, to ponder just makes you go round in circles. Philosophy tries to explain things, but rather because it allows for too much ambiguity, what started off as a search for answers has led to even more grey areas and unanswerable questions instead.

That no profound thought or clever rhyme,

No soaring grand, melodic line

No theory, philosophy or sign,

Can explain it.

Because You are above all these, incomparable, unexplainable, unchangeable

God, You are.

//Tuesday, September 22, 2009 5:37 PM

Haha maybe it's the weather or something but it seems to have put many people in a contemplative mood. But I like reading stuff like that anyway ;)

I guess it's supposed to be the time where people start studying but I honestly don't know what I can/must study. Ohwell.

I love beautiful lyrics really but the funny thing is I can't seem to hear them unless I read them haha. Brooke Fraser is really good and the songs make alot of sense.

They speak of hope, of love, of responsibility and God's everlasting mercies and tenderness. How I long to live in Your presence all of my days, Father.

The hands of the clock turn,

Slowly but surely.

There it goes,

Running, crawling, walking,

It goes.

It never waits, this time.

Leaves people behind,

carries others on her wings.

Or for some, its a standstill.

Yet, it goes, Yeah, it goes.

The hands of the clock,

They turn.

I wish I could write words that could express just the littlest of who my God is, and that would be enough. Just that bit, for He is large beyond measure. And no one could adequately describe who He is. But I know, for I feel it within every fibre of my body, within the spectrum of time.

Imposters have been passing, offering good-feeling glow

But I'm holding out for what you are about - an inferno that burns to the bone

Some urge me to be temperate, lukewarm will never do

I will speak of Your faithfulness to me all the days of my life.

//Sunday, September 20, 2009 5:03 PM

At sak's house now celebrating guess what! Hari Raya! Hahaha :D Ok oops I just spilled bandung on myself :( Ohwell. Bandung is nice man, quite a late realisation but yeah. Just when there's not too much rose syrup. Always thought it was disgusting lol. I love her huge mac! :O Plus she has a laptop too. Unfair much!

Sak has a cute little niece who always comes in to take her bug balloon hahaha. Rather huge extended family.

Ah tmr's a hol. Guess I would be heading off to Sentosa! :) Everyone else around are like busy studying or smthng why am I so free really lol. Exams are kinda next next week and they only start on the friday of that week! Seeing the red lines underneath words the computer doesnt recognize is kinda irritating lol.

You. Need. Counselling. I am serious. Ugh.

//Saturday, September 19, 2009 1:50 PM

http://thingsweforget.blogspot.com/

coolios :) Just like the 'You're Beautiful' project, which I have yet to do anything about!

// 1:08 PM

Long weeeekend! Rainy days though haha but I like it :)

David is one admirable guy man. The guy after God's own heart. Haha tis my prayer to be like him, to be able to focus on who God is in situations rather than what's the situation. And he writes beautifully not to mention.

Yay sak's out of the hospital haha miss you dude even though I liked having the 2 seats to myself and the random shift to the left and right whenever I feel like it x) Hehehe.

I love it that the class is so small and everyone has their own space though some like the foursome prefer to y'know pack in nice and er cosy. Buy 1 get 1 free for both of them. And how we get irritated when other people come in and mess up our arrangement haha but that's just how it is. So glad I'll be with this class for next year too.

And the sec4s have finished their EOYs! How unfair haha ohwell. Soon, soon. Not looking forward to it though like srsly man all the papers just get extended and like means its gonna have more questions/need to write a longer essay. My hand is going to die.

"The earth is the Lord's, and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it; for He founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters."

Psalm 24:1-2

//Thursday, September 17, 2009 8:27 PM

Haha I really like my class alot. The amount of time we spend doing totally wacked out stuff haha and the other half of the time stoning :D The fact that eoys are like really near hasn't really struck me yet. I actually feel like it's post exam alr haha.

For one, long weekend this week!! I feel like going for my food date with Yue Zhen haha and dunno if Imma go sentosa with the rest. Hm.

I wish I could cross my arms and cross your mind
Cause I believe you'd unfold your paper heart and wear it on your sleeve
All my life I wish I broke mirrors instead of promises
Cause all I see is a shattered conscience staring right back at me

It makes me smile and makes so much sense at the same time! :D

Don't you think, it's very tiring to be sad all the time, to be drowned in your problems or others' problems? Yet so many times we can't help it.

And then we like to surround ourselves with an island, just alone like that. Where no one can enter, no one understands. We just are adamant on fixing it all by ourselves aren't we?

Lonely centers, doesn't it hurt?

//Wednesday, September 16, 2009 4:51 PM

PT season is FINALLY officially over. PTs this year have just been a nightmare man. Woke up feeling so extremely tired today :(

This friendship, is it me or you really. Cus I don't know, but I really don't like things now. Maybe I'm just being angsty these few days. But the weird thing is its only towards you. I really don't know.

Not a word of thanks I hear

On a side note, MJ concert gonna be shown on TV tonight!! Thus ends my haven't-watched-tv-in-a-few-months spree. Hahaha :D

I want to sleep but my hair's so wet now :(

// 12:36 AM

Tired out.

Burnt out.

Never, ever, again. This is not how I do things, if it's yours really I don't care anymore. Be the way you want to be, just don't drag me into it.

//Tuesday, September 15, 2009 4:54 PM

Yay I'm so glad we do rugby in pe haha :D School's starting to speed up with the topics they're trying to cram in and what not. And lit pt's due tmr, after just about everyone else ended their pt season like long ago ._. Bleah ohwell.

Sometimes it's really a huge chore to work in a group. :/

//Monday, September 14, 2009 4:43 PM

Haha amazing for once I see wen's blog on top of mine on the dashboard for 2 days in a row already xD Doing work at home is the ultimate phailz my math ws is currently beside me and seriously I have no inkling of how I'm supposed to do it. Darn the 3D diagrams bet no one else does it but us hais :(

EOYs are like super near and all the teachers need to rush thru stuff why must they make the curriculum so intensive anyway! Bleah. But at least school started off quite nicely haha, normal la ohwell. The weather today is terrible though feel like I'm in an oven. Oh and I effectively jabbed a hole in the aircon button wonderful.

This term, no matter what, my eyes gonna be fixed on You :) From now till forever.

Oh sing sing sing,

To the eternal King

Sing sing sing

Hear our praises ring!

//Sunday, September 13, 2009 8:00 PM

Well. These days have certainly been x12345 eventful haha. And I'm also x12345 relieved that coach is not gonna go. But at the same time another deadweight has been added to that fact. Argh. I really don't understand how coach has this way of talking that would make me feel so. Ah dunno, emotion overload.

I'm glad I went, really :)

Tomorrow is Monday. The most horrible day in forever. I need my dec hols nowwwwwwwwwwwwww. Bleah.

Ah, went to riverlife on Saturday cus there wasn't service. And though of course I love our church tons more :D It wasn't like I expected, in a good way :) Saw alot of people that I knew which was pretty um freaky? Lol. Don't think that's the right word but yeah pretty surprising actually.

Things kept inside, maybe.

//Thursday, September 10, 2009 9:15 PM

Ah, hols have been eventful haha. Been going out almost everyday from like morning till evening/night. But it's nice :D

Many study dates this hols haha but also can la at least I finished my work and all. Still need to coordinate lit pt with the rest. But other than that I'm pretty much done :)

Had heart2heart talk today with Yue Zhen haha :D Miss you Yue Zhen! Food date soon yup! Bummed around till my mum came to pick me up haha family high tea full ttm man. Had my shortest outing ever around like 1h+ max yup and home.

It's just something I cannot fathom and understand. Hm.

//Tuesday, September 08, 2009 5:02 PM

In the end, it doesn't even matter.

But it's okay, cus all I know is that I'm just following where God leads me. What I will do is what I believe in. At least I know what I want and the road's pretty clear. :)

Where you lead me I will follow, I'm trusting in what You say; Today is the day! ~

Today marks the start where I just give up.

I don't understand how it feels fine to be given up upon. Whatever, it doesn't matter anymore.

Ah, lit pt and ss fa. I need inspiration for lit. SS feels too complicated to do :(

//Monday, September 07, 2009 10:05 PM

I'm going on muggerrrr mode :D Heehee. As of today. Went to airport to study with wen aaron and clara. Took a very loooonggg lunch hahaha and went to tcc. I can't believe I forgot to bring my jacket today!! See la wen rush rush rush haha! But yeah. The airport is freezing srsly :O Was actually, quite productive. But really man, not doing math in like such a short while has taken a toll on me. Or maybe it's just cus I have the holiday brain. I highly doubt that my answers are correct but ohwell. I really can't be bothered. :)

Trng tmrrrzzzzz.

What will happen?

//Sunday, September 06, 2009 5:16 PM

Sept hols sept hols sept hols :D Better than nothing anyway lol.

YC 9th anniversary yesterday! Happy Birthday YC! :D Extremely blessed by my time there and it's just the place that I have not stopped growing and learning so much plus all the great people I've met there. Yup.

Went to T1 roof with Wen after that haha was pretty crowded actually. Secret secret, kind of, ok no, just talking haha. :)

There are so many things I want to say to you don't know how you'll take it but yeah you need to stop thrashing that place. Is this the example you're gonna set?

I will not be moved I will not be shaken. There are so many unanswered questions which I honestly don't know how to answer but I know God can. But all in all I know God is in control and sovereign and so I won't doubt Him. It's more of His faithfulness to me rather than my faith which is lacking in every way.

Simplicity, that's what God's about. Child-like faith. Not leaning on my own understanding.

This I will learn, slowly but surely. Though I can talk so much about it, I have yet to actually fully exercise this knowledge.

There are so many so many people that I feel I need to talk to/God needs to talk to haha. That are like, my responsibility in a way. Thank God for msn hahaha

My stronghold, my pillar, my lighthouse.

//Tuesday, September 01, 2009 10:15 PM

Paperlove's photobucket account has been inactive. This is bad. My pictures are all gone my blog looks so ugly and nothing now ._. Pfft. Ohwell.

I FINISHED MY LIT, for the time being. And went to catch GI Joe! :D Now I get what William said about the too many coincedences but quite cool la nevertheless. Had quite a nice time haha we took the longest time to get to the top of T1 lol ate then went up to the rooftop to talk. The exhaust pipes thing ah are the noisiest things in the world ._. Other than that, it's quite a nice place.

Just, sometimes. Ha ohwell

// 11:05 AM

Happy Teachers Day! :D

Thank you for the break today also haha. Yesterday was pretty nice :) Teachers Day concert was okay haha were better last years but can la the RGS next top model thing was really funny :D Hm then went back to primary school. The people are still, same ol' la, which might not be a very good thing actually for the guys' case ohwell. Chen Lao Shi was back and seriously my chinese epic phail I realised I couldnt answer her back in chinese lol. Met Mr Soong too rather disturbed that he still reads my blog lol Hi Mr Soong. Mr Teng is gone unfortunately hais he was a good teacher.

Went out, slacked/stoned around, watch The Proposal which was quite funny and cute haha but seriously not a movie to watch with the 610 guys. :O Lucky I wasn't sitting that near to them haha. But yup. Was a pretty fun/tiring day la.

Came home, watched wowp haha then slept. :) Going out for another movie later! Life's good life's good. But means I have to finish lit haha like by. Today.