Jehovah Rophe
The Lord that heals me

Haha the most amazing thing just happened. Well yesterday when I hit my head my mum said there was quite a deep cut about 1 1/2 cm deep, thats probably where all the blood was coming out. For a not very big cut it sure had ALOT of blood coming out. Hm.
I can't really remember but I'm quite sure I prayed and asked God to heal my cut completely. And today when I asked my mum to check whether there was a bruise she tried looking for the cut but ITS GONE. Ah, there is one line. Haha but the thing is it closed up completely which really how in the world can that happen in like 1 night.

How awesome is my God huh!!!

Giddy. :( I hope there's nothing wrong. Hm.
I keep zoning out, I think thats a bad sign.

Highly doubt that I can finish chinese pt in time I cant even think coherently.

There are only 3 people online as of now hahaha that's gotta be a record man. Felt terrible in the morning but after going to the doc taking meds and sleeping feel quite a bit better (:

I'm really afraid I won't be able to complete Chinese PT. Argh. I gotta hand up the essay on monday!!! Dai. And prepare ppt and speech etc. Can't really do it today, brain's busted. Hopefully I get more clearheaded later/tmr. 3 days mc haha hope I don't miss too much otherwise the hw will be terrible.

Sick. Don't know if that's a good thing or not cus I feel terrible but at least I'll finally be getting a good rest after so long.
1 more week. Hais.

I am incoherent now I think

The weather is cold cold cold. It was pouring at school area but I think it hasn't rained here. Yet. Hope this lasts till the night lovely weather to fall asleep in :D

Geog pt is done with too! Hoho things are looking up! Ok no, there's still chinese..... Hais. Need words to crap but it'll probably come out in english. I need to pass chinese. Only continuing so that I don't need to take it in JC!!!

Tested out the national day thing today too and it was, quite a success! :D Yay.

Lord you opened my eyes.
We need you to heal this world, really. Need your light to shine in this darkness. I feel like we're Sodom and Gomorrah, but Lord do not strike us down. Let the Christians rise up to our calling to stand in the gap and intercede, to bring your peace and show the world your love.

Yes yuen, world is broken hahahaha.

Hillsongs was good! (: Reached only at the message part though but this year's message was quite good I think I mean some parts not very applicable but it was so interesting about how a little passage could mean so much. So hm, gonna be sharing that at shop (:

Finally started watching pao ba hai zi for chinese pt.
Really good movie haha I liked it alot :D

You're so irritating you know that. All I did was try to talk to you. Not much of a conversationalist huh. Wthbbq.

So. Finally, bio's done. Handed up and I'll never have to stress/think about it again. And there's still.... many more to come. Like how I just got told of some weird chinese pt time allocation thing that I have to hand up. I haven't even watched the movie, much less think about what in the world I'm going to talk about.
To add to that there's still the other miscellaneous homework like english yada yada. Strangely I find comfort in math, which is probably one of the only things that I can do quickly and efficiently these days. There's always a definite solution, definite way, clear cut no fuss. Mr Chew spoke rightly when he said "RGS girls don't deal well with ambiguity" It's true at least for me.

I hate pts alot. And not to mention exams are popping up soon. I don't know how I'm going to get through Chinese. For the first time in my life I feel this inexplicable sense of busy-ness and I think I might actually be stressed.
Oh who am I kidding, I am stressed. This is so unlike me. Term 3 is really taking its toll. December holidays, where are you when I really need you.

Hillsongs tmr (: Worship God with all my might all my strength and all my soul.

Deadlines are just creeping nearer and nearer Sec 3 really is such a. Bad year. I mean, workwise at least. There's just so much more. Hm I still wish I'm quarantined haha Ruo Xi got quarantined too today cus her Aspen mate got h1n1. When isit my turnnnnnn :( Hais. I miss all my buds no one left ever goes down for lunch its so ._. Goodness.

I am thinking, everytime we finish something, what next, what next. Life just forms this monotonous cycle, that like you do piece after piece of work, and then exams, yada yada. Holidays do seem more alive of course, but after that, you just gotta snap back into reality.

There's never time to do what I would really want to do. I really want to take a gap year after JC, but one year, there's still not enough time right. There's so many undone things left in this world. But I guess I'll just see where God calls me to. Not my will but His. These few days been learning more and more about submission which is also coupled with grace. But, I don't want no second best. But God still blesses, no matter what.
I can't believe He loves us so much. It's many years of growing up knowing this love but it still leaves me bewildered and amazed.

And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have
power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and
deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses
knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Ephesians 3:17-19

Hm I just feel like. Not having to do any work, going to take a nap, watching stuff, reading, going out with people.

But ok reality hits:
1 film review
1 zuowen which I don't really intend to do
1 geog pt
1 chinese pt
1 lit pt
1 ss speech
1 chem assignment
1 bio pt

What in the world is my life coming to. It never used to be like this :( This term sucks. 10 more weeks including this till the end of school for the year. I'm counting down man.

Tomorrow is Monday, AGAIN. Sigh life just seems to be this endless monotonous cycle. The weekends seem to have flown by with nothing much being done. Hm. I'll have things to look forward to next weekend though (: Like Hillsong concert!! Whoo excited excited. Looking forward to Radical too! That's in August though.
Mr Chew put it really nicely, that we have around 10 weeks of school left. WAOW. Nice huh! Can't wait. Ok but I think now the honeymoon period's almosttt over. SAs coming up, PT deadlines, yadayada. I haven't started on quite a few but nevermind, we'll take it as it comes huh.

Sunday always seems to be rather busy especially with shop stuff. I want to watch HM hahaha.

I think I might get sick soon temps unnaturally high (for me) and headache (which is actually gone now thank God (: ) Ohwell. Bball in the morning yay today was quite a good shooting day.
Cell gel time was pretty funny haha nut thinks the 2 countries I most want to visit are Saudi Arabia and Iraq ._. Thanks. Lol.

Opportunities lost.
My God is so amazing all the time though.
Everything just falls into place.

Yay I'm so happy finally finished changing my skin. It's a taaaad small but nvm cute also hahaha. At least now i got quite a few skins to last me so I don't need to go skin hunting for awhile. :D
Ok the week is ending yipeedoodle! CCA is starting only next month. Seems like the H1N1 in sch is getting preeetty bad. Everyday MrCheung comes and report new cases lol. Our daily 'update'. It's so retarded. Ohwell.

Kz nothing much. FRIDAY TMR. Oh and I want to watch harry potter soon!! I hope geog pt is really extended. Would die of happiness. Hah

Yay the swelling on my gum went down :D So for now I can bite. Spent the better half of my day talking like I had braces though cus it was so swollen and reaaally hurt. But at least its quite alright now! Thank God (:
Titration 5 today I forgot to bring my calculator but ohwell didn't even have time to calculate anything anyway. Glad I didn't get any of Q on me haha but the brown stain blends in anyway. Math GA tmr hais basically a very dead day at least it ended well, early.

CCA's starting next week, dunno if that's a good thing or not, but. Yeah I do miss the sport.

It strikes me just how there are so many who go around with two faces, every single day. On the surface one could just be so happy, so encouraging, so carefree. But the thing is its fake. All that. How possible isit to separate the double lives that we lead, to completely disassociate one with another that they could be complete opposites and yet exist within the same person. It's just unnatural. But yet sometimes there's a need for it no? To just stay within that zone of normality, for everyone to see, and to not add on to what sadness/troubles that this world is already full off.
But it's not neccessary to be so extreme. Masking emotions is a very bad habit I think.

Er I'm not referring to myself. Lol.

Ok, off to do more productive things.

What now?
I never thought, never expected.
Stirring up things forgotten
The rememberance.

What now?
Words that have been left unsaid
For too long;
Now, they're gone.

What now?
The road that forks
A decision,
A journey.

I fly free.

Finished my bio pt just left the process part, yay (: Staying up late to complete things is really not the way to go. Spent the better half of today feeling absolutely drained and tired, incapable of focusing. Hm there's still geog. But I'll take things one at a time. Haha.

To find joy in Him who is our provider and the lover of our souls, in EVERY circumstance. There are just so many things you can learn from people who might just seem the most insignificant, the most unqualified. Simple things like these.
Joy that radiates through, God-given joy that the world cannot take away.

Down at Your feet oh Lord,
Is the most high place.
In Your presence, Lord,
I seek Your face,
I seek Your face.

There is no higher calling,
No greater honour
Then to bow and kneel before Your throne.
I'm amazed at your glory
Embraced, by Your mercy
Oh Lord, I live to worship You.

:)

Cus that's where I want to be, always and forever.

Yesterday was quite, nerve wrecking in class. But it turned out fine, so that's good that's good. (:

Everywhere I turn, I see people who are so broken, people who just NEED God. And I wish they'll go back to Him, cus only He can make them feel true peace and joy again. Heal this world, Lord. And please go back to Him, He loves you with all that He's got and He's waiting for you to run back into His arms.
C'mon, guys.

And I also realised yesterday why I like humanities so much more than Science other than I do well in it lol. But yeah like what Lyap said during geog, humanities like its name suggests are about people, about issues of the heart. Hearing about those in the slums about their joy and that smoking mountain of rubbish thing. Yeah. A timely reminder indeed.

Oh yeah, sword xchange later! :O :O :O

Never, EVER thought I would forget. It feels so odd.

It's the middle of the week already. Wow fast man. But fast is goooood. Quickly get to the weekends (: I forgot to wear my pe shirt today haha I EVEN LOOKED AT THE TIMETABLE ._. Thank God mrsj wasn't there though.
School has been okayish. I keep doing sudoku like everyday hahaha. It's really fun k. Heh.

K I really don't know what else is there. I've finished all my work and I'm bored. Going running later ;)

I'm never gonna be fit enough to play good softball again. Bah. I want to throw. I want to be able to throw properly to 2 again. To be able to bat properly. Ok I mostly want to throw.
But I don't want to go to training. I want to train though. What an oxymoron. But I get what I mean so thats fine haha.
(:

I miss playing softball/sports.

Holidays seem so far away like they happened a really long time ago but yesterday's youth day really seemed like holidays all over again. Hais I MISS ITTTTTTTT. Okay ya youth day yesterday. I WOKE UP AT 9.30. Huge huge accomplishment. But after that I felt sleepy lol. Ok so, had a very last minute outing to watch ice age and the queue was insane so we had to watch the 3.00 slot which poor wen couldn't catch cus she had piano at 4. Sad lyfe. Hahaha yup the movie was pretty okay/retarded la. And the whole cinema was well, filled with kids hahaha. I wanted to watch transformers though but Aaris didn't want and stupid Aaron Pang watch already ohwell. Went to church for nothing hung around went home.
Yup, pretty sums up my youth day.
Oh and I ate some mochi something flavour jap ice cream which was quite, hm different hahaha. Courtesy of Wen ;D

School started today again the new english teacher is cool ttm WHY CAN'T SHE TEACH US LIT.

Overnight prayer yesterday. I didn't sleep at all :O Me and greg were the survivors from our cluster hahaha! But we were really dead after that. I came back and slept till like 5. I actually still feel kinda sleepy now.

YOUTH DAY TMR WHOOOOOOOOO

My fingers hurt from playing the guitar :O Ohwell. Haha

IT'S FRIDAY. TOMORROW'S THE WEEKEND. I am eternally grateful for the weekend, PLUS youth day. School has been sleepy, boring, funny, alright. Haha. Fasting has been good and I think I've been doing well so far, praise the Lord! Unlike last year where I would get terrible terrible hunger pangs lol.
Why is no one online its Friday man! Sigh.

Overnight prayer tmr and sword xchange oohlalas mock ok I'm really tired I think I can't rmb anything.

Goodnight

40 DAYS FAST AND PRAYER
Lord, give me strength.

I feel extremely accomplished haha yay :D