Math GA tmr! So stupzzzzzz. Some 15 min test la waste time! Hmph. Training today was horrible. Ugh. Peicai is next tuesday thanks alot thats like soooo far away huh -.- but yeah I'm quite screwed la.

I can't believe there's so much chinese work!! Never before have I had so much chinese stuff man :O It's terrible! I can't figure out how to do chinese corrections lol I mean, I really don't find anything wrong with my sentence ): or isit just me. Hm. Ok, I miss cny! Haha felt like it was back to the hols but i didn't get to play mahjong aw. Nvm I shall patiently await march hols LOL. How near.

My house yesterday was like a free for all with clara coming and then leaving and then wen coming. Haha but it was quite fun so yeah :D we should do this more often.

My head hurts I think, I mean I know I got more homework but whatever I wish the weekend would hurry up and come already.

Mass collection of angpaos today. Haha! Had a really great dinner yesterday with lobster + a WHOLE can of abalone on the spinach and fish and ngoh hiang lol homecooked btw. :D
Okay lunch and dinner appointments tomorrow pretty busy huh. Have a headache suddenly ): Poofy.

CNY IS HERE! :D
Whoo! I am so happy + relieved + what not oh yay yay yay. Love the cny break, plus I don't think I have any homework. Wait, do I? Oh yeah the stupid math journal so irritating la I don't think I can like find an ad like that ._. Tsk.
Lunch just now was super funny haha THEN Ai Ping how leh? (Thats her surname btw get the pun?! :D) Ladeedum this is such a nice break.

That stone I threw from up upon Puaka.

Yesterday.
Batted until I wanted to die cus I wasn't even batting well/properly anw. ): Plus all the bat swings and my muscle ache was killing me. Training finally ended then headed off to TM! :D
Stupid Seoul Garden ex like crazy la!! And the manager kept coming over to make sure we pay and whatever sheesh so irritating! Lousy.
Gathering was good :D talked and ate alot haha tried to go to playground to talk but was a fail attempt haha ohwell yay love 610 man :D Came back really tired bathed and slept.
Tk OBS peeps are back can emo with them now haha emmerlyn got Dayah!! But seems like none of them saw Andy.. ): Ugh I wish I went to school at Ubin, seriously.

Today.
RI training sun was so hot :O And I feel really tired now. Ok not super really but quite la. Think I got darker hahaha. Kimberly lent us her sunblock which smelled like apricots pretty weird haha. Did abit of pitch batting but Nat's pitches weren't good when the batters were there, lotsa balls. Sigh. Hope we can do it!!!
Church later 8D

Ah now = training training training.
I can't bat for nuts what is this la. It's so stupid to see everyone else's balls flying here there everywhere while I cant even hit it pass the infield or something. And jugs ya I know the ball was high but pls only having one hit?! Plus it was a pop fly. Sheesh. I wish I could hit better and get back on form like my standard not only hasn't improved, it deproved. Great. But there's not much time how am I sposed to get my batting back in order by like, season?
I hope coach puts a DH for me. I can't bat.

Ok can't believe tmr still has normal lessons I could kill the school. Hmph.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA TAN SHEUN NING!!!
God bless you always, buddy! I'm so so so sorry I didn't connect the date and your birthday together today! Ahhh, so guilty la. I'm so sorry! And i already sent you an sms that you can keep foreverzxzxzx :D heehee. Love you buddy and come over to my house more often man :D

Look! I dedicated the WHOLE post to you

(I changed it alr la! :D)

Don't know why but been feeling so so tired lately. Sigh. There's so much work to do though ugh this sucks la! Season is in..... 13 days. 1st game home game against PC. Not looking forward to season tsk.

I keep seeing the 3 stars so happy (: I guess that sometimes, things are there but many times we just don't look out for it or pay enough attention to see it. It could be everywhere, all we have to do is to look.

The stress is coming on. And I'm not ready for it.

I hate reality. Reality sucks.
I'm still missing OBS thank God I'm gonna be seeing Bo Seng on monday. Yay!
Those stars, those stars. Those 3 dots, I see you again (:
You're always in my heart.

It's so hard to tear myself away from it

Yesterday was really funny too haha I went all crazy during cell and Liau you're just as bad okay told you you're my fellow inmate :D :D
Celebrated Clara's birthday haha love you buddy.
Hwei Yen and Emm going for OBS tmr :O sigh I wanna transfer to tk just for a week! ;D Worship was really really good and I felt this sense of gratefulness for the experiences that God has blessed me with and I know that all that I learnt is what He wanted me to learn that I may be moulded and develop into an instrument for Him to use.
It's the most I've ever learnt about myself, and everyone and everything else.

Picked up guitar too and yay love it.

As I lay there on my bed this morning, I'm thinking: I'm on a bed, my bed. I'm no longer in my tent.
And when I got out I went to the sofa thinking: What's there to do now, no time limits, no instructors to meet, no Bo Sengs to chase.

There's still alot of adjusting to be done but I think I'm moving on. And yes just like on christine's blog, it's OBS that has left its legacy and footprints on our hearts because it has just been such an amazing and awesome journey. Sigh, school on monday, that sucks.

Pencils. Thank you Andy for sharpening me and being the best no matter what others might say. Thank you Andy for teaching me so much and giving me the many stories and insights on trust, on leadership and so many other things. And I know its time that I am shipped back to Singapore, that I may start on my own OBS journey, in life.

Outward Bound: When a ship leaves the harbour for unchartered waters.

Why do all good things come to an end

I've never laughed so much for an entire week! And it felt gooooood

I miss OBS. Lots of people are probably glad to be back home safe and sound but I'm not that happy. I won't mind trekking another 12+km or rowing that freaking boat or anything at all. Just let me go back.
OBS taught me so much, and I really really really miss it. Bonded with Bo Seng (my watch btw) alot and we had so many crazy laughing times. I haven't really laughed so much in a week, really. Its got to be a record.
I got used to eating dry rations and everything and being dirty and smelly and rather unhygienic like I know my hands are dirty but who cares I'm like really hungry. I don't mind going through all that again.
OBS opened my eyes to many many new things and my perspective of things and people have shifted like quite abit. I learnt so much about myself and got new insights about how to handle things as well.
Andy was the best in the world and I do miss him alot sigh I miss his lame cracks and how he's always so good to us and always try not to be angry with us we know that we're always late and stuff and we're so sorry. Have a million things to say most of it is thank yous and really, thank you for guiding us through and letting us treat you like a friend. We all love you and though we always make sarcarstic remarks at you haha but it was quite funny right it just means that you're our friend. Thank you for making the best apple crumble and cooking our fried rice. You're really the best and you became ano for us! Like we just sat there eating :/ I miss your spastic face and even you just "stoning" there during land expedition I BET YOU WERE LAUGHING INSIDE YOUR SCARF THING LOL.
Climbing the Indiana was also really a great experience. I think my legs shook when I was on it, but I managed to get through it and I tell you the sense of satisfaction and joy is just wow, you can only experience it yourself.
Rowing was actually very fun and I love Bobos cus we really did so good. Though we always started out last and took quite awhile to get the hang of it, all of us persevered on shouting out hit and I will be forever so proud of us especially that we always managed to catch up and go all the way to first. Stupid Andy and Dayah always came over to make waves haha but we fought against that and also against the extremely strong current. I was really pushed to my limits and I think I could/would have given up if not for Bobos. Sleeping and tents and cooking our own food was also a whole new thing to me. Being able to see the stars at night, its really, beautiful. I miss the stars, I can say that I even miss my tent!
Land exp was enjoyable too. The backpacks just became a redundant weight on my back as I walked and what I threw away on the cliff into the Quarry which I have to say is extremely beautiful. Our road block thinggy also was the best all Andy's fault btw actually no such thing haha but when we finally completed it, I was so happy, so relieved and yes, filled with joy. I think I changed because I learnt how to accept my teammates and push them on and not get so angry/frustrated all the time. When we first arrived and we had to play that logic game thing that we kept having to restart, I was filled with frustration, but this time it was different. Maybe what Andy said is right, my goal may not be that unreachable after all. He makes alot of sense. Commitment dive today and I do commit to reach my goal.
OBS has opened my eyes to so many things and I know that I learnt alot now the challenge is to apply what I learnt into life.
To love, to lead, to trust, to serve, to give.
Andy tells us thought provoking stories haha and the pencil thing was so.... i dunno how to describe it, not lame btw. It was really touching. And its so Andy I miss my bedtime stories like the hippo one haha!

Andy = LAME but really awesome, Bo Seng = WOW.

Like sak said I learnt so much more about my classmates than i could ever learn in class or any other normal situation.
"We are like tea bags, we dont show our true fragrance(or was it colours) till we're put in hot water."
"What is behind or infront of us is tiny compared to what is within us."

It has been a great journey of self discovery, of friendship, of laughter, of joy, of learning. And I've grown to be such a stronger person and yes, it's what lies within me that matters. Whatever around me is redundant, if only I have the heart and mind to overcome it because how hard obstacles or life is is how we choose to face them. Whats most important is our heart to do it and not our physical strength.

What a long post. I've never wanted to cry this bad when I left something. Probably cus this is the only time that I really really really and truly missed the people and the place because I thouroughly enjoyed myself and grew so close to my watch and Andy all that. Thats why I miss OBS so much. There's also so much to be said and done and looking back I realise we didn't do THAT many things and I wish we could continue on there.

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened. Yeah, I'll smile because I've been blessed with the best people ever who made up my best experience. I'll smile because I've done and tried so many things. I'll smile because I know that through it all, I know I've become a stronger person, a better person.


These 5 days have been so bright and colourful all the colours in this world won't fit.
There's a million words I could say about this whole experience and I don't think it would ever end.

You said that friendships/relationships come and go and to treasure what we have right now. I hope I did and I'll really try.
Shit, this makes me wanna cry again.

obs is tmr! all the way till fri. im super excited :D only glitch is my ulcer stupid la i have to suffer with it for the whole time i guess. sigh.

k im going to sleep trying to make my ulcer heal haha!

oh yes, getting in for mpp 1st round has made my day too :D
please lets get in officially!

im back from msia! (:
the funeral went quite well i guess (: and gong gong looked fine. on a side note my ulcers are KILLING me. seriously. ): ohwell. hope they heal soon.

oh yes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHILDIA!!
19 years old alr man. oh i mean 25 sorry. :D heehee. see i do admit that its your birthday. haha hope you liked the board cus i did like half of it whoo! hm anw, have a very blessed 2009 and im sure your today was very blessed cus you celebrated it with US ya :D love you lots thank you for everythinggggg!

alls well and alls good.

I FINISHED MY CW ESSAYYYYYY.
CALL ME PRO PLEASE. ahh super super happy :D:D:D and now i dont really care about the other work haha! for one thing i REALLY dont get math. i think im gonna need tuition alr ): ): ah shucks. math sucks like crazy actually its just the topic cus its statistics ):
i think my ss teacher is quite cool except for the ._. moment shared with grace haha. ohwell. hm what else. bio was so out of point haha we didnt do much just kept talking about the genes stuff and i like copied so much. dont think that they'll be of much use though.
i can't stand the fact that we have math for 9 out of 10 days in 2 weeks. sucks la! ugh. e math sucks (apparently stats is part of e math) sigh i wish we could just move on to the other stuff like trigo or something.

the art of ignorance. to pretend when inside im hurting so much.
its time i learnt from you.

today's the last episode of xiao niang re alr! its happy and sad well cus its finally come to the end and im way excited to see what happens :D but also cus well, its ending. but just as well la, i wont really have time to watch i think and i would be so depressed if i missed it cus of training.
some of you will probably go "oh finally. then those people would stop ranting about that dumb show." haha -stares at jon- but oh whatever :D

went for lunch with daena today havent seen her in agesssss! was quite nice had lunch and stuff with mindy too then wen came haha walked around to buy some stuff then went to her house to do the stuff :D and while i was busy with THE STUFF, someone started playing the guitar so in the end i did almost all of THE STUFF. hahahahaha but was really funny and then we kept trying to find the correct key for alabaster jar. abit phail la but in the end i THINK we got it? haha!
yupyup THE STUFF is really cool not to mention i almost got knocked down while carrying it. really really thank God that nothing happened to me! the car was really really close and the car honked me ):

mmhmm, really tired today i dont know why probably the lack of sleep im going to sleep after watching my show and and one more thing,
OBS IN A WEEK'S TIME! HOHO.

:D

whoo just came back from bbq! haha super fun :D naomi esther and tim were back so yay but didnt talk much though, hm abit awkward. and because they were there tanya came too! haha i really miss all those times man. like alot. ohwell.
i ate until i think i could vomit lol. and first we played captains ball, with a banana.... yeah. we were sposed to use a fish but okay thats beside the point. but the banana was seriously gross!! so we switched to a bottle which shaun totally crushed up haha it became more like a rugby game cus EVERYONE was snatching for the bottle. was pretty violent haha! but really really fun i kept laughing until i had no air and pls with shaun, no one could snatch away the bottle. ._. tsk.
yup and then we played werewolf which is basically a cooler version of polar bear. hahaha superrrrr fun too. i was werewolf 2 out of 3 times la!! and i was sposed to be for one more round but i was sick of being the werewolf lol so i asked for a change. yup and werewolves won 3 out of 3 times! whoo! werewolves ftw man! haha and all the power cards just kept killing each other it was really quite funny.

yup so my night! haha! havent had bbqs like this in a long long time miss them so much. ah i miss the old times.

First day of school.
it was fine, made a few new friends but i kind of know most of the people in my class so. i ended up sitting with yiwei WHOO! hahaha our lucky nametags got placed together hee. yup and it was talk after talk after talk. sleepy day.
training after that.

those rounds, 6?7? i felt numb. so so numb. i didn't feel anything i wasnt even panting all i did was run, and run and run while replaying that song in my head. just bouncing up and down on the track i even felt that i had the energy to sprint! i thought i was going crazy, haha.

i hate to see you like this. its not fair, it really isn't for you. i know, i know. I'm sorry.
Its all I can say. For my part, at least.
what matters to me now?

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBUDDY :D
its been a looonnnggg way to here. and its been great. well, holidays have never been this exciting and eventful and im not ashamed to say its because of the greatest ever church friends! :D:D:D

mmhmm. smash yesterday was awesome. PRUU! hahahaa mexicans ftw. and the sec2 guys really really funny. they and their deliFRANCE HAHA.

2008 has really been a great ride with i must say alot of ups and downs. i've probably experienced some of the happiest times in my life and also some of the times where i've hit rock bottom. well, there are so many so many things that i could say, but some things don't need to be revisted.
and then there was winning nats, the happiest smile on my face caught in picture. its up on redsports btw haha.
and there was lalas, and the rest of the people. the best i've ever known.
and of course, there was my dear Jesus. who's always been there, by my side, for me.
and the others, who made my year great, during the course of it, encouraging me and always giving me that listening ear, cracking me up and helping me back on course.

change. its been happening so much. and 2009, it will be a year of change, i know. i hope it'll be happier..
yeah.

I trade these ashes in for beauty,
And wear forgiveness like a crown.
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy,
I lay every burden down,
At the foot of the cross.

there are many things, but i've decided to leave it behind with the old year, and start afresh, with new beginnings.

I just want to thank you Lord (:
for everything.