went shopping with wen today. waited for ONE AND HALF HOUR at orchard mrt for her D: tsktsk. my butt is sore now. ahwells. she bought some stuff at cotton on, after mindless meaningless roaming around at far east ._. dint buy anything.
was nice, walking and talking :D
made me forget temporarily. hmm.

"I feel sorry for both of you. I know you and eunice have been trying and putting in alot of effort. I can see who's trying and who's not. Its quite obvious one. Kelly also has been coming. And samantha too, she really improved from last year. Last year always sick one, but this year even though i think she knows maybe she won't get the pitching position. But she still trains. I'm thinking of a fielding position to put her in."
"How to play good without training?"
"They're not coming, means they're not supporting you. They're not supporting this team, the people that come."
"This year can forget about it already."
"Like senior, like junior."
"I'm thinking about rearranging the whole infield. I think you know where i'm coming from."
"I'm very disappointed lah, and I think you are too."
"Which one is more important, house chalet or nationals? Chalet. Means they're having fun right? I think if they tell their house advisor nationals training would of course come before that."
"Jetlag....? ._."
"Kick her out, if I say you are, means you are."
"If no choice, then we'll put the sec1s in"
"She also went last year right...?"
"You all were told before right. That June holidays cdiv try not to go for holiday. If really forced, then at least when come back put in your best for every training and come for all la. It still applies now you know."
"How good you are depends on what you want for yourself. It's all about your own selfdrive."
"You have to get your priorities right!"
"You said everyone would be coming back. If i knew the attendance like that, I would have just gone to RI. Forget about coming here!"
"Actually this was for the sec2s to do it alone. See how the sec1s slow you'll down?"
"If the sec1s can improve this much within such a short period of time, the sec2s can do even better!" but the fact is, practically no one is here..

all those, are what coach said, alright. i'm just gonna put it out for everyone to see. cus i really really need to get it out. its no use me hearing it only. its stuff i think y'all should know. i hope ull do read this. its very real, okay. 4 trainings, and, still, you all dont want to come.

alanna, i dont want the bubbletea anymore. because its not something that you owe ME. not coming, thats letting the team down. not just me. letting yourself down, letting coach down, letting all of us down. its not me that you should be saying sorry to. it should be the team. but sorrys dont really mean much alright. actions mean more.

imagine if y'all came. training, would be so much more efficient. so much more improvement taking place. do you think we're good enough? you think so? i think not. we all need each other. to practice throws and everything, we need the postitions there. by not coming, you're letting all those that come now. cus its quite as if we're just whiling our time away here.

do y'all really want it? then show it. ull all replied a yes. wheres that change that we talked about? gone? just simply air talk? actions speak louder then words.

i know you really try, and you really want it. i know you're working very hard. thanks boon. i know you're trying.
and those who i feel are part of the team are those here. today. eunice boon me kelly sam. these are the people who come and try. put in, effort.

wake up alright?! we're NOT all that good. potential yes, maximizing it, NO. NO NO NO. you think you can play a good game without training?! you think we're very good?! 4 more trainings.

coach had high hopes for us. we had high hopes for ourselves. everyone had high hopes for us. YOU THINK WE'RE GONNA ACHIEVE ALL THOSE THINGS. WITH THE SITUATION LIKE THAT, NOW?!
coach doesnt deserve to be so disappointed. hes been giving so much.
people like me eunice boon sam kelly dont deserve it too. we've been doing our part. coming, putting in our best. but what use is it if the whole team's not present. its a TEAM GAME, okay!

stop bullshiting me now. improvement? i think, deprovement. if you still remember what we'd talked about that time. if you really put your mind to it and work at it. improvement WILL take place, NOW. people can see okay.

4 more. okay?
i really couldnt take it anymore i had to burst out like that.

but nico, thanks for taking the initiative. and im proud of you for knowing what you really have to do.
and christine, you're 2nd base. you know how IMPORTANT that position is or not?!! i hope you do. one falls, everyone falls too.