shit. eh its really scary okay i dont want anything to happen. to you. or us. im worried.

i am so messed up.
everything's overlapping each other and just coming out in a jumble.
i really thought..
us.
now i feel like a hypocrite.
team.
you.
uncertainty.
snippets. everything's together. you won't have a clue.

im very tired. tired of all this.
maybe its why my body's protesting. aching like crap.
i feel so weak. cant even throw that pitching distance. wth.

im worried for you okay. and i am troubled by it. argh stupid stupid stupid. its abit unsettling.
its scary that this can make me almost cry. like ALMOST. but the fact is that if there was no one there tears would have just free flowed down. its been a long time since i cried because it just came.
i really love you. you're the only one that would notice. thanks, dodo. <3
very scared. and worried. please don't. damn it.