history and chinese today. was okay :D i guess. 3 down! 5 to go! (including philo D:)
I AM FREAKING. PISSED. OFF. WITH. YOU. OKAY! LIKE SERIOUSLY.
"training" today with dearest pitchers! kelly, sam, nat :DDD you guys ROCK okay!
i believe in you! really really good pitching today yo! :D
though there were some wild pitches (i mean, of course there will be what right), everything was really good i think 80 / 90% strikes! :O! WONDERFUL RIGHT. haha
i tell you if you guys all like. pitched like that or better then this, we're seriously gonna ROCK ZONALS.
i mean like y'all havent trained for what, 4days alr? nat and sam more then that and its really good now. means once warmed up and everything should be even better.
y'all can be better im gonna pushhhhh ull! haha :D
the sky's the limit! (please not literally dont want all your balls to fly up x] )
ITS THANKS TO THEM IF NOT I WOULD BE MAJORLY PISSED AT YOU RIGHT NOW.
thanks for today you guys!
y'all make me happppppyyyyyyyy. :D
and like. subway and long john's was the BEST.
YEAH. AND YOU MISSED IT. BOO. whatever.
and thanks for coming too nat! :D though you had study appt and your mum dint allow and all. but you came! you rock la.
maybe its good that it happened. cus i bonded lots more with the rest.
i LOVE dearest pitchers : kelly , sam , nat !
you guys rock my world. <3

you spoil my mood. and when i read it. i felt even more pissed.

loooove, joce :D
thanks afiqah, for listening and getting me to breathe (:

i love talking to wenting man :D
she reminds me of everything.

loveyou! yes and swimming apointment yeah :D
sat! come quickie.

change. change is imminent.
the future's uncertain, but i'll always put my faith in You.
you guide my paths.
time waits for no one.
& i wanna take the road less taken.


I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words
The scent of magic
The beauty that's been
When love was wilder than the wind

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

Listen to your heart....mm..mmm

I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye

listen to your heart-dht

SHES GONNA LEAVE.
THEYRE GONNA LEAVE.
what reason do i have now to stay back?
she is prolly the only one i really stayed for.
been with me throughout all these years.
my closest friend there.
and without her sis, i dont know whats gonna happen.

korkor keith, could you come back soon? ><
but when you come back. still, i dont think things will be that much better.

and i found out that __ has a gf :O
i mean, its expected la. but still!
haha. x) k that was random.

i still remember those times..
when we were still kiddies :D

everyone's gone. all gone.
and now she's leaving.

sorry, clarence.
but i just didnt wanna go today. what with all that's happening.
besides her, youre prolly the last person i'll stay for. (:

thanks for the memories. but i may be leaving. real soon.

i feel like crying.
i dont know why. theres nothing to be sad about.
but tears arent coming out.
my face's a mask.
i wish i could just let my tears run one day.
why're my eyes so dry.

i wanna talk to an old friend.
but theres no one online.
besides, i dont know what i want to talk about.
i just want to talk. say hi. or something.
to someone that i havent talked to in ages.

i feel so weird.

YEAH MAN. DID IT DID IT DID IT!!! CONGRATSSSSSS GUYS! :D
so happy for y'all!
& i was there, wasnt i? (:

YOU GUYS PLAYED GREAT. AND THE LAST INNING WAS AMAAAAAAAZING.
like 1-2-3 OUT! :D
y'all deserve it, more then any other team.
cus i know how hard y'all worked. how much sweat pain and tears was put into it.

when that one swing counts. and it really counted for alot today.
i'm glad that i went.

nice pitching felicia! and nice TAG :D
nice catching siminnnn! :D
nice throw to felicia amandaaaah. oh oh! and nice catch :D
nice running yingxiang. haha after all the times that i shouted "ying xiang! watch!" my throat's hoarse now D: ahwells :D
nice stretch eunice :D
nice catches for the outfielders cus there were quite alot. ying xiang, eileen, joelle :D
nice covering liying. :D
nice stopping lari :D
and nice batting kexin. :D
oh yeah, my perfect 10 seniors

anw, GRATSSSSS AGAIN! AND YOU GUYS ROCK.

now cdiv season is coming. damn.
i hate myas.

hey, cheer up you guys.
y'all gotta be strong okay.
no matter what.
whats happened has happened, so just leave it behind.

fight your hearts out tmr.
& i know you guys can do it.

keep the faith!
love you guys. <3

and i'll be there. i promise.

seeing that pic, it struck me that i really missed you.
i really miss those times that we had.
i guess, its all so long and so far away now. so.. unreachable.
i could never bring those times back again.
that time was the happiest times in my life.
the time where new friendships were made and bonds were strengthened.
those happy smiles.
i remember what a mess it was supposed to be.
but it became a beautiful disaster (:
i remember the times. when i went to your house.
the sleepover. the first one in my life.
you were the first person to talk to me in p3.
and i love you for that.
but we've drifted.
ever so far away. i can't ever get you back.
we used to be so close.
yet now...?
i just wanna cry and hug you. wish you were the same person i knew. wish everything would go back to those times again. i wish we'd never drifted apart.

i thought that everything changed last year.
that it was a brand new start.
and all that i knew of was of the past.
i didn't treasure you enough.
i'm sorry.

when i hear of other people talking about renuions.
i just cant help but wonder.
wheres MY renuion?
with everyone again. all those loved ones.
have i forgotten them?
in the span of one and a half years,
are they already gone?
from my heart? from my memory?

i miss you.

reminiscence. nostalgia.

just striked me that bdiv season is ending.
whatever they're gonna get, they're alr winners.

bdiv season's ending. means sec4s are gonna go. like soon. very very soon.
reading kexin's blog is really. inspirational? yeah. i guess thats the word.
touching too.
i dunno why, its just a feeling when i read those words.
they're really beautiful.
her frustrations, endurance,
determination.

thank you sec 4s. for being such great seniors.
for encouraging me. for helping me. for correcting me.
i'm gonna miss them.
alot.
it wasnt the same with last years sec 4s. cus we weren't really close.
but this batch of sec4s.
i dunno how to say it la.
but i'll really miss them.

wonder whats gonna happen to softball when the sec4s go.
its just gonna be. so different.
and for us, it's not like we'll see them in jc or anything. cus theyre not the directly above batch. though i wish they would be.
you guys gotta keep your promise k! y'all HAVE TO come down and support us no matter how old we are :D

thank you for all those times. (:

felicia, simin, amanda, liying, lari, kexin, joelle, eunice, eileen, ying xiang.

oh yeah! i forgot.

TIM HUGHES & PLANET SHAKERS WAS THE BOMBBBBBZXZXZX!

haha. sang really cool songs like here i am to worship, one way, mighty to save, HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD :D
but planet shakers didnt sing the nice nice songs i wanted them to sing though D: ahwells.

yupp. thats all. I LOVE WORSHIP CONCERTS <3

CCUBE ARE THE PRO-EST CUPCAKE SELLERS EVERRRRRRRR. :DDDD
ccubers rock la :D softballers too, just to give credit to dawn and uhm (ahh whats her name =X) who finished selling like 2 trays.
haha. but CCUBE SOLD ONE WHOLE BIGGG BIGGGG TRAY LIKE. THE WHOLE ALUMINIUM TIN THE BIGGEST ONE :D
whoo! we rock yeah man.

fyi. we the nice nice people helped the jc softballers man their stall for like. 9875733289782 HOURS. D: lol. but it was quite alright la (: hehe. BUT ITS STILL FREE LABOUR. D: THEY GET THE MONEY. WE DONT. BLEAHH.
watched adiv girls play against ora today. was alright i guess. ora people like DEB :D were kinda out of touch. watched the prefects dunking too XD was funnaye. haha.

basically. ora was well. not bad. was quite fun what with the cupcake selling and all :D ahhaha. yay. and i didnt spend more then my given coupons hehehe.


probably changing phone + number tmr :DDD yay. i hate my phone. keep on hanging super sucky la -.- and now im using my super old samsung phone. which seriously sucks. even more. i cant press the keys properly! D:

k. gtg da pao food loh. bye!

wth is your problem. you stupid bitch
im sorry i know i dont often swear or anything. as in, not like this but im just majorly pissed la.
like. excuse me? you werent even supposed to be IN IT. i dont care if you read this or what. i really couldnt give a damn.
i tell you if MY NAME or THEIR NAMES aint there. i will go up and SLAP YOUR FACE. i dont care. and im talking for real. if not your face then i'll just shout at you. scream. whatever.
it was alr confirmed okay. and since when do YOU have a say in it anw? like never.
im not gonna be hypocritical anymore. just gonna show you what i think of you IN YOUR FACE.
cus this is the last straw.
i cant believe i ever fell for those lies. looking back, i feel so stupid. but whats done is done. & i've learnt smthng. trusting your gut. thats the safest bet.

**

erghhhh. i should never have brought it up la. i thought like. since it was so long ago, it was like fine alr. im sorry alanna! D:
i didnt know hui nao cheng zhe yang.
wan de tai guo fen le.
sorry nico. its only us. im serious.
dont be so pissy k (:
iloveyou! <3

2.4! 12.44MIN OH YEAHHHHHH MAN :DDDD feeling absolutely happy and satisfied. i improved like 2TWO MIN from last year okay! :D whoo!
happy happy.
but my stomach hurts now. like when i simply touch it/press it a LIIIIIL. D: dumb dumb stitch and situps. lucky i didnt do all 40 ah. otherwise it would have been killlerrrr.
the worse is over :D which is good good good.
bahhh. have a blister on my 2nd toe -.- i have no idea how it got there lorh. so irritating.
2.4 is exhausting. D:

whoo. kallang tues! congrats bdiv! :D tkgs. y'all can do it k!

hey you 2 ah. maintain that great friendship luh! don't get angry over small small things k. FORGIVE AND FORGET. (:
& i KNOW you guys can do it.

i admire your determination, courage and optimism. i really do. (: it just makes me wonder how you can go thru all these, and come out smiling like nothings happened. its such a big thing. yet what you say is that ull take it as a challenge.
& im gonna be rooting for you! cus i know you'll pull through.
He'll bless your faith, yes He will (:

<3 joce.

weird dreams last night. i dreamt that some prefect suddenly came up to me and gave me the dc slip :O which was long overdue. hahaha. oops, i shouldnt be typing this scarely zhitian really gives me a dc slip on monday D:
bleahhh. no i do not want to go for dc ie. stoning there for an hour reflecting on why i overslept 2 times last year and why was i late for assembly -.- gahhh. ha mei lan made me do it alr okay. so sucky.
n me and eunice wanted to laugh. hahahaha. oops. "How will you improve?" -by setting 2 alarms at home- "How will you make sure it is implemented?" -by making sure they ring-
and there were so many similar questions i just kept writing -i'll set more alarms and make sure they ring- so rubbish.

k, this is a totally randommmmm post. i just feel really bored. i shall go play piano! heehee. got the chords (which i am desperately trying to learn) and fiona's taogei scores (the only notes that i can read haha.).
byeeeee! :D

whatever, you hypocrite.
like i care.
y'know, you dont have real friends. and you probably never will.

it's been great to be away from all that. (:

haha, i realise wenting has like 106 more posts then me :OOO but at least i'm posting regularly nowadays. x)
but my blog's still dead. sucky.
sports fest today. cheered till my voice was hoarse but buckle still didnt win 1st for cheers D: sian. richard's dance was coolios though. yihong looks super diff :D suddenly so pretty sexy bimb. hahaha! XD
hey afiqah, cheer up k. love ya! you did great :D im not kidding. quoted from eunice "o.0 i never knew that afiqah could dance. that well." haha! you did you besttttttttt, i'm sure.

grah i wanna watch step up 2 with batchies. stupid house dinner ull have la alanna and nat D:

ohgosh. still cant stand someone. ahwells (: such. a wannabe.

rained like crapppppp ytd. D: and i got really wet though i was at the busstop, with an UMBRELLA in front of me -.-

oh and i slept myself in my own room! :D haha, for once. but w/o aircon cus my mum said if i wanna slp myself then no aircon. waste dian D: gah.

k, i know what a random post this is. x) i shall go DUMP all the pics liying sent me into christines sharing folder. haha :D

ah yes, today is a good good day :D
i'm really sorry ccube and i'll really really try. (: i hope you guys felt the difference today! and thats the way i'm gonna go with from now on. thanks and i love you guys!
& THAT SEED IS PLANTED!!!! :D THANKS CHRISTINE. YOU ARE RIGHT.
and i'm just gonna place my absolute trust in the Lord. and i know all things will work out fine. cus its not what i want, but His will. not what i do but what He's gonna do through me. :D

im gonna try really hard. im gonna be a good one yesyes i am (: thank you thank you! you are one big blessing :D

jocelyn.